||[Apr. 24th, 2007|11:59 pm]
I feel as though this last month has been the best in my life. I never thought I could find someone as special as you, and to care for in so little time as you. These past days have made me think alot about what I lose if is dont smarten up. I have made some mistakes, I deny this, and I want to conquer these addictions. It is a part of my life I am willing to throw away just to spend another moment with you. Nothin in my life has ever come easy, and this is the biggest hill I have ever had to climb, I have fallen. I didnt realize I had until this weekend, not just from what was said Friday, but because of my mother and family. No more. I will suceed and i will conquer, and i will do it for myself. Its not worth losing anymore. I dont want to lose you, I dont want to risk myself or others. I am better than that.
My thoughts are filled with you. Everytime I hear your voice its as if you are an angel coming to take me into you heavenly embrace. Everytime I see you it as though I am looking at the entire earth and all its beauty. everytime we touch its as though my body weighs nothing and i will float to the heaven's end. When I look into your eyes I feel no fear, no pain. All I feel is warmth and contentmen.
I want this to last, I want every day with you to be new and exciting. I want a future with you in it.